Long time no blog.....

Wow, it has been over a month or so since I last blogged! Nothing too much to talk about, just a little venting maybe. Anyways, I have found out that Aidan enjoys doing yoga and working out with me :) He is just the cutest trying to do the poses and when he does push-ups it's darling. A very close and dear friend of mine,Chad, came to visit earlier this month. It was so nice to have him here. It's so funny how life works out. I have known Chad since I took my first breath into this world. We have never actually hung out too much because he is 34 and when I was in elementary school he was in middle and when he was in college I was in high school and the age was always a thing. I mean what high school kid wants to hang out with a middle school child, right? But now that we are both all grown up, namely me, it is all different. He and I have talked and e-mailed for a while now and he decided to come visit me. It was so nice. It's like I've known him my whole life and never actually really knew him till now. Our moms have been the bestest of friends since 4th grade, yes for you Floridians that's right 4th grade! It was so nice having him here and him and Aidan got along so good. He actually helped me out a lot with lil man. It was so weird,yet nice, having someone else there helping me with Aidan. It made me see that I really do want to have someone there and have a great relationship again. I mean being single and it being just Aidan and I is awesome but it was amazing to see what it would feel like to have a real family, now if I could just find a man who is not a complete retard. My main problem is I think I need to re-examine my views of men. I haven't had a good view on men, unless they're family, in forever. It just seems like every time I try to get myself into thinking that men aren't so useless after all it takes just one to prove me wrong. I have tried to change my views ,but just maybe I am meant to do this alone. The world is so screwed up now a days and no one has values or knows what it means to be in a good wholesome, normal relationship. Is there such a thing anymore? Are all the men left for us single people just left over little boys? It's like when you get divorced and you become single there really isn't anything left but little boys and assholes. So how do single people find love now a days? And is it even worth it? I know I seem crazy but seriously men are just so lost. Now let me make a correction, I know not all men are like this but about 90% of them are. It used to be you could go to church possible meet a good wholesome man, get married and have kids and all that jazz, but now a days that's not even a safe place. Also if you do find someone chances are they're all screwed up from their past relationships and you have a whole lot of emotional baggage to overcome. Now most of the time it's hard to find a man because guys are so intimidate by a woman who knows what she wants, has her own life and is head strong and sure of herself. Like one of my bestest friends, I think she and I are going to be single together forever. She is so beautiful and smart! She knows what she wants and goes after it. She also has curves and doesn't starve herself so she can look like the next Paris Hilton. I mean she has a good job, owns her own condo and is comfortable in her own skin. It takes most women a lifetime to get those kind of things and feelings ,but it seems like because she doesn't fit the "mold" she has a hard time finding a man worth anything. You ladies know the "mold" I am referring to, the thin as a rail , keep their mouth shut, have no opinion, and do nothing but party and act stupid mold. That seems to be the social norm now. That seems to be what men want now a days. Something has to give because if something doesn't change all of our kids growing up are in for trouble. I mean I am so glad I have a little boy. I don't know if I could raise a girl with the way the world is going. Girls are taught at an earlier age that it's OK to be sexy and that it is acceptable to wear these little skirts and prance around in front of all the boys who aren't old enough to know how to control their hormones. It is also the parents fault. No one takes any responsibility for their kids anymore. There are so many parents now a days that think it is the schools responsibility to raise their children. When I go out shopping and I see these moms that let their little 10,11,and 12 year old girls wear these little up my butt crack shorts that say stuff like "juicy" on them and it makes me sick, I just want to go over and slap the poop out of the mom. I mean really why would a mom want her daughter to be 11 and "sexy"? I will tell you why no one teaches about God anymore and values. It's just easier to conform to what is going on in society. I mean God is no longer welcome in America it seems. It seems our government is getting more and more controlling, and not about things that need to be controlled. I mean when was the last time we had an election worth a shit? What our government needs is to grow some balls! Our government is so afraid of offending people that we are now a big joke. I mean we need to teach tolerance and teach our kids to love and respect people regardless of how they worship or what language they speak or what color they are. Not by taking God out the schools and off our money. Everyone is free to worship how they want and pray how they want. So what if a Christian child wants to say a silent little prayer in school or a Muslim child wants to pray to Mecca in the middle of the day, let them. We don't give the option we just take it all away because the Christian child saying a quiet little prayer or the young Muslim child may offend a little Jewish child. That's not the way life should be. It's the same way for adults at work. Whatever happen to it takes a village to raise a child? Now it's like all it takes is a babysitter,a T.V, and some food. Parents,not all but a lot, have become so selfish and leave the raising of their kids to everyone else because they have to have their own life. My life is my child and he is all that matters. Now I know it's not all parents because I know some awesome parents that I look at in awe because they show me that it can be done. The world is only going to get worse and if something doesn't change now it probably never will. All I know is that all of us parents who actually want to raise our children to be wise and to believe in God have our work cut out for us. The road is going to be hard and we may have to work harder than those other parents but the outcome will be so worth it! Well I think I have expressed enough of my opinion for one day, unless you think you can handle more from my crazy mind ;)......

Aidan

Just wanted to put a pic or two up! I love this little guy more than anything in the world and have so many pics of him, thought it might be nice to share a few ;)